Parents

Parents, we need them when we are babies. We need them as we grow up but less n' less as we get older. As teens, we usually don't want to be around them unless we really need or want something. Thinking they will be around forever but know they won't. As adults, we venture out on our own, creating our own families, our own journeys. Saying goodbye, see you later. Feeling good about our personal discoveries, like being away but missing them. Thinking we have time to reconnect, to talk to them at any time. Maybe even taking some things for granted without realizing or meaning too. Still thinking they will always be around, still knowing they won't.

Time has come and gone. Then one day you look at your parents and wonder when did they change. When did they become older, realizing how much time has passed. You become older, seeing them in you. Missing them more as the days go by. Time goes on. Your parents get even older. Things about life starts to creep into your brain like a scary spider. You start to realize time is precious. You notice as you are not so young anymore, either are your parents. You start to need them again as they start to you need you. Of course you always needed each other but no one really stops to think about it. 

Then you start to realize that one day they will REALLY need you but you can't be there. Things start to happen & realize, time is running short. Wondering who will be there when something happens, knowing you can't be there fast or maybe can't be there at all (because of money & distance). You start screaming to yourself "NOOOOOO! I need my mommy & daddy". Wanting to run back home but knowing you can't for you have your life to finish. You want to hold them & never let go. You want to be a kid again so you can keep them close. You want them to be there forever, put them in a everlasting protection bubble. To not say goodbye.

Sorry for the tear jerk-er blog. It is something that happens with everyone & I am sure goes through everyone's mind sometimes. Me, I needed to get it out when it "hit me like a subway train" (I had to use a quote from a Darren Hayes song because it describes it).